Spent

Spent....

Every once in awhile I come across a blog or two of a friend of mine who takes the much needed opportunity to vent a little via their blogs.

Well, I've decided that I think it's a VERY good (and therapeutic) idea!!! Although I hope that none of my friends who read this blog will think that I have lost my mind!

I've been trying to hold it all altogether, and do all of the things that have been on my plate, lately, but frankly I don't think I can do it anymore. No, really. I'm not kidding.

I know that Heavenly Father will never give us more than we can handle, but I do think that sometimes WE take on more than we can do. I've been trying to wear all the hats that I have, and I just can't do it anymore. My head hurts.

I'm exhausted.

Simply put, I'm spent.

I have forgotten how to have fun, and I have forgotten how to take care of myself.

I read on Simini Blocker's missionary blog that she really feels that it is impossible for people to live the gospel on their own. I believe that. Well, I guess I am asking for your help. I need your prayers. I need your encouragement. I need to know that my friends are there for me. Does this sound crazy? I hope not!

I feel like such a failure, but I feel the need to be honest, too. Maybe Brent and I should just sell this house with all of the responsibility that goes along with it, travel around the country in a motor home, and not have so much on my shoulders for awhile? Have you ever thought of doing that?

The worst part is that I feel that the people I love the most are angry with me because I can't give them what they need. I feel I have been a lousy wife, mom, daughter, friend, church member, etc. I'm doing my best, really.

Seriously, what in the world makes us think that we can do it ALL in the first place? It's so crazy. "Men (and women) ARE that they might have joy. That's what I want. I just want to be happy.

So, I'm making a pledge to myself. I am starting fresh. Pray for me.

Lisa